Makeup has always been a passion of mine, but over the past year it has absolutely consumed my life. To some, that may come off as a negative but I can reassure you that I’ve never been happier. I’m going to be 100% honest: last summer I was extremely depressed. I felt trapped in a life that was not my own with no idea how to change it. I knew I wanted to be successful in the beauty industry, but I also knew just how saturated the field was. With the ever increasing pressure to stay in school and graduate with a 9-5 job, I never thought I would be able to turn my dream into a reality.
See the problem with being incredibly shy and introverted is that you cannot possibly utilize your full potential until you let go of that fear of the spotlight. The beauty industry is extremely personal and in your face; something that I am most certainly not. In order to make a name for myself I needed to show myself, something that was not easy for me by any means. To this day I’m not sure what exactly compelled me to stop dreaming and start doing, but I haven’t looked back since. Of course I started with baby steps; making an anonymous Instagram account where I never showed my face. However, as I gained more and more followers and received an overwhelming amount of support, I began to give more glimpses into my private life. One day I finally took the plunge and I showed my face, feeling particularly vulnerable yet free. Free from the anxiety that held me back my entire life, free from caring about what others had to say about me.
You see the beauty of makeup is that there are no rules, you can express yourself however you want. Sure there is more than enough drama in the beauty community, but you choose to involve yourself in that. It’s easy to take the same path as everyone else and claw your way to the top; it’s a lot harder to get there by remaining true to yourself. Instagram is a way that I can express myself visually and artistically, however it’s time that I do so verbally. I want to make my voice heard, no longer keeping my opinions to myself. That is why I am starting this blog, to share my thoughts behind the pictures I post. So grab some popcorn and buckle up because I’m not slowing down anytime soon.
Mediocre Makeup Queen 